Happy 4th of July!

Happy Fourth of July to all of my American friends! I hope that everyone had a great day of celebration especially in light of the news about North Korea. But this isn't meant to be a political blog so I'll stop right there, I'm sure to all of your relief! :D

We spent the day at my in-laws beautiful home with them and my sister and brother-in-law. We hung out around the pool and had a great late lunch. As always, it was a great time! Then bad weather started moving in so we came home.

I made the comment to Raymond that, although I always enjoy family gatherings, they are hard for me because Drew should be there. My mind just focuses on that and his missing presence. Holidays will never be the same for me since Drew died on Easter. I just don't know how to express the emptiness that I feel when I think of him. I miss him just doesn't sound emphatic enough but that's what it boils down to. He would have been 4 months old this week and we as his family should be enjoying him; instead, we're waiting for his headstone to arrive.

And on the headstone front...we stopped by the cemetary today before heading out and they had poured the foundation!! That means that the actual headstone should be installed very soon since the monument company calls the cemetary to tell them when to pour the foundation. Maybe it's sick but I really can't wait for it. It's a tribute to our son that will be around much longer than he lived. People will have a tangible reminder of how much he was loved. After that's done, there's nothing else to do for Drew and that makes me so sad.

I keep trying to work on Drew's scrapbook. I'll get all motivated, get everything ready and then freeze up or start crying. I really want to get it done but I think it's best if I just put the stuff away for now. You know, no one really makes scrapbooking products relating to the death of a baby. All of the papers and embellishments are so happy and optimistic. :( Same thing as with his baby book but I did manage to complete as much of that as was applicable.

Let's see...what else? I got my hair cut while I was in Texas. I guess it's about 10 inches shorter now. It's much lighter and cooler, good for the warm weather. I also updated Elizabeth's website. All new pictures and a slideshow for her upcoming birthday.

On a brighter note, two of my favorite former Sacramento Kings players will be joining the New Orleans/Oklahoma City Hornets! Bobby Jackson and Peja Stojakovic should be official members soon! Woo-hoo! It's like a little taste of home for me since we lived in Sacramento for 6 years and attended our fair share of Kings games. Even though these guys will be here now, I'm still a die-hard Kings fan and that probably won't ever change. (For those of you who don't know, I'm talking about NBA teams!)

And on a MUCH brighter note, Baby Audrey is home!! Congratulations to the Miller family on having their little Princess where she belongs.