Thursday, March 01, 2007

One week to go...

It's now one week until what would be Drew's 1st birthday. I guess it IS still his first b-day, right?

I'm doing better than I thought that I would be. At least for now. I tried to buy him some special flowers the other day but had to basically run out of the store before I burst into tears. So no b-day flowers as of yet. E. asked if we were going to bake him a cake and I guess we probably will.

I'm sad and bitter. First birthdays are a big deal. I hope that wherever Drew is he's looking forward to his special first. If only it could have been here with his family.

Blech, this sucks so bad.


Lauren said...

It does suck, Jana. I'm sorry that you're feeling this way right now. My heart is in the same place. It just has that weird, incomplete this isn't right. I hope that Drew's birthday is peaceful for you. You will get through it, I promise. As always, thinking of you and wishing you the best.

Love Lauren

Shawn C said...

Yeah - it does suck. Celebrate and honor that beautiful boy of yours! He is watching, and smiling down on you guys.
Thinking of you!

Melanie said...

I wlil release a balloon in the air on his birthday Jana, and say a little prayer.

It must really suck, again.. I am so sorry! (hugs)

Julie said...

Jana- It is okay to bake Drew a cake and to celebrate his life. Drew was alive and we need to celebrate! After all, He was an amazing little boy!

carole said...

I'm thinking of you. First b-day are such huge milestones...and it's not fair that Drew isn't here with his family. I'm always here for whatever you need.

Anonymous said...

It really must suck. Kaylee and I will be thinking of you and don't feel weird about celebrating his birthday. He was here and you deserve to remember him however you want. Hugs. I am so sorry you have to go through this.

Gina said...

I agree you should take him a cake and do whatever you want. My thoughts are always with you Jana! Take care.